Hey hey,
TLDR from the first post: I decided to move my daily jots to a public space to have a medium for me and loved ones around the world and even around Berlin.
Hopefully, this space will become a bridge for us to feel our presence in our busy lives.
Are we doing this? :) I am excited!
July´s card-pull: Page of Wands
It was such a happy month for me. In migrant and adult life, it is such a miracle to have an easy-going month. I believe that I enjoyed it as much as I can.
So here is headlines from my month:
Paying off student-loan
I paid off all of my student loans. I took the student loan because I decided to start therapy when I was 19. Since then I have been seeing a therapist regularly. I questioned a lot when I was in my early twenties why do I need this while my friends seem to enjoy their life. Also, I wondered a lot how I will feel about investing this much money and time in therapy when I need to pay back. I wondered a lot about how life is going to be.
The last 8 years in therapy were challenging but also rewarding for me. Life is still so complex, especially being an immigrant is more complex but I never feel more light than this (it does not mean from now I won`t be desperate at all, we never know what life can bring us). I cannot believe the transformation and how it reflects on my life and the circle around me. This 8-years long journey brought me a lot of answers to me. I am happy that I followed the call I had for getting professional support and stick with it. I feel like if I invested this money into something else, it would not bring the wealth (not only financially but socially and emotionally) I have right now but who knows what would happen if I invested in crypto instead of therapy in 2015 haha.
Moving in with my partner and staying alone:
I left my parents’ home just before I turned 18. Since then, I have been living in a community. Except for a couple of (literally, just two different short periods) flats, I have been so lucky that I have been sharing my flat with amazing people.
I just moved in with my partner this month (I feel like this will be another topic for the newsletter for another time.). He had vacation this last week and I think this was the very first time that I stayed alone in the home for this long. I mean it was always impossible to have a home all for yourself if you live with more than 3 people. I thought it was going to so boring but now I understand why people hesitate to be part of a crowded flat-share haha.
Even though I enjoyed it a lot, I still prefer living in a community.
Duckhead umbrella:
Many of my close friends in Berlin had birthdays this month (I ate a lot of birthday cake this month, yay!). It seems that I get along well with Leos and Cancers.
I bought this lovely duck-head umbrella for one of my close friends. I am in love with the umbrella. It is so practical and funky. She liked it so much. The funny thing was that she thought the same gift for me too. Good that she has more than 2 months to find a new gift idea :D
Barbie movie:
I liked the Barbie movie. To be honest, I am not known about my movie taste but why I like the movie was not related to the movie itself or its production. It was more like the experience I had. The cinema was so full, I had not been in a full cinema for years. This reminded me of the time before the pandemic.
Watching something casual with girls in a crowded cinema. It was just a happy nostalgic feeling for me.
International Pride
It is the second time I preferred International Pride over CSD. It is more like a protest rather than a rave or party. It was so beautiful. Full of amazing people, glitters, and giggles.
Still, I am surprised that protests in Germany are so silent compared to Turkey.
The question of this post:
I would be happy if I have this medium more interactive. I am happy to hear from you. I can just text me or mail me ( yeah, even if it is a couple of words or just one photo). What did you enjoy most during the month? :) Was July a difficult or more easy-going month? Let me know.
The month ahead:
-I hate dishwashing by hand. I really really wanna buy a dishwasher as soon as possible :D
-I will go to Malaga for the first time and I will join a festival there. I might try to surf for the first time. I am really excited about this trip.
-I started to write my internship report and I really wish to finish it this month. This school stuff became such a bottleneck but I believe I am getting there.
July was a difficult month with very high highs and very low lows. The irony is that we literally went to the Scottish Highlands and the Netherlands/Lowlands. Lovely newsletter, thank you for sharing it with me too ❤️